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I QUIT ALCOHOL FOUR YEARS AGO FULL

A couple of times I drank in the morning and passed back out. I guess I was always just a little bit drunk. I didn't drink at my desk but I would have to drink in the morning because the withdrawals would be so bad that I'd have the shakes. I was getting through a liter of whiskey a night by myself, then I would wake up in the morning and have a few shots of gin before work.

It's safe to say my drinking definitely got worse during that time. But after she died, I didn't speak to anyone in my family for two years because they didn't like my boyfriend, so I was completely isolated. I had tried to hold it together, relatively speaking, when mom was alive because I would go to see her. And after my mom died when I was 19, I didn't have health insurance, so I stopped going. I couldn't imagine containing all this emotion without drinking to drown it out. Therapy helped because I had someone to talk to, but I wasn't really ready to make any changes.

I QUIT ALCOHOL FOUR YEARS AGO FULL

They had a box in the middle of the room full of empty bottles and they told me they'd made me an emergency therapy appointment. My aunt picked me up from school and took me home, where my grandfather, mom and other friends were waiting. My family did stage an intervention when I was 17. I started experimenting with other drugs then too, because he was into that. It made it a lot easier to get alcohol because he could just go and buy me whatever I wanted. I then got into a relationship with an older guy when I was 16 and he was 25.

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I was watching my mom waste away it was so awful. I was just in so much pain and I didn't know where to put it. It was as if the spotlight was on her, and I was sitting over in the dark where I thought no one could see what I was doing. The sicker my mom got, the more focused everyone became on her. Or, I'd sit in my room and drink a bottle of whatever I could get, usually whiskey or vodka, until I passed out. Which is dangerous, I do not recommend it, but it's what my friends and I were doing.įrom the age of 15, I was sneaking out and drinking an entire bottle of liquor every night. If you're a teenage girl you can stand outside a store and ask a random guy to go in and get you a bottle of liquor. Pretty much immediately I was drinking hard liquor, and I drank a lot. That was to drink to escape and then pretend that everything was fine. The only coping mechanism I had was what I had learned from my dad. Two weeks after that my father attempted suicide. My parents had recently separated and in very rapid succession, my mom was diagnosed with motor neurone disease and an uncle I was really close to died. The first time I ever drank I had quite a few beers at a friend's house and when we ran out of those, we raided their parents' liquor cabinet and drank gin and tequila. I was looking for oblivion and I was going to find it. I started drinking alcohol when I was 14 and I did so to get drunk.